In this episode, Nic and Lala process the recent white supremacist violence in the US Capitol, discussing how these same forces manifest in what is currently known as Canada, why Canadians are so eager to ignore the problems at home, and the energy shift BIPOC are experiencing in this moment.

We live in a society where separation, disconnection, and harm are the norm. This is a trauma culture that supports ongoing colonialism and genocide. In this episode, Nic and Lala discuss intergenerational trauma, cultural shadow work, and our collective responsibility to heal.

As adults, our relationships with parents might be edifying and supportive, but for others, painful remnants from the past can carry forward, weighing us down. In this episode, Nic shares what it’s meant to build empathy for her father as she heads into a new phase of life.

The most intimate relationship of our lives is the one we have with ourselves. But it is also the most complicated, and at times, the most painful. In this episode, Nic and Lala dig into the roots of self-hatred and trace paths toward healing.

Most of us come to justice work with a deep sense of care and love for others. But often, inadequacy and the belief we’re not doing enough eclipses our ability to have compassion for ourselves - or each other. In this episode, Nic and Lala discuss the challenges of navigating vulnerability, performative allyship and shame.

Rest is one of our most basic needs, so why do we find ourselves resisting and outrunning it? And in doing so, how are we harming the sick and disabled folks among us? In this episode, Nic and Lala slow down and discuss balance, quieting the noise around us, and rest as a foundational part of healing and liberation work.

Collective liberation requires all hands on deck, so what role do you play as you show up to do the work? How can we challenge hierarchies of power that lie even within our “safer” havens of care? In this episode, Nic and Lala lean on the teachings of Mariame Kaba who teaches us that everything worthwhile is done with other people.

With all the ways we are harmed by dominant groups in society, we often expect the communities we build with other marginalized folks to be safe havens. So what happens when they’re not? In this episode, Nic and Lala discuss power and entitlement, examining our own complicity, and what it would take to build safer communities.

What would be possible if the men who don’t actively commit violence showed up to support survivors and oppose violence with everything they've got? In this episode, Nic and Lala discuss surviving the indifference of our communities, the layers of harm and betrayal caused by toxic masculinity, and why supporting men necessitates holding them accountable.

Black women show up for everyone, but who shows up for them? Who benefits from maintaining Black women’s oppression? And what do calls to #protectblackwomen mean in a world that gleefully maligns their pain and silences their voices? In this episode, Nic and Lala discuss patriarchy, Black women’s power, and the importance of knowing our history.

True to their mission of learning in public, Nic and Lala discuss their feelings about identifying as femmes, their understandings of femininity and who is excluded from it, and the rebellion of femme identity.

Nic and Lala discuss detours on the road to sexual awakening and radical self-acceptance, exploring our own connections to our bodies, and the gifts that sexual liberation can offer us. This episode was live-recorded for Room Magazine's Issue 43.2, Devour.

We’re told to follow our dreams, and that if we can dream it we can achieve it. But what are dreams made of? What guides our dreams in the first place, and what if they aren’t aligned with who we really are? In this episode, we discuss escapism, wild dreams, envisioning new realities, and differentiating between the dreams that fuel us and the ones that waste our time.

When tragedy dominates the news, the call to show up for those who are suffering is impossible to ignore. But when the news cycle moves on, too many would-be “allies” do too. So what would it take to build solidarity between our communities on a stronger foundation, outside of any news cycle? In this episode Nic and Lala discuss building trust, sharing generative space, and why strong boundaries must underpin all our of work.

Where were you in the fight for Black lives until this point? How did you uphold anti-Blackness, benefit from white supremacy, and profit off the destruction of Black bodies? And where was your care for Black people all along? In this episode, Nic grieves the traumatic loss of Black life and demands more from new-found allies in the Black Lives Matter movement.

Personal growth is an ethic that supports our healing and helps us become the people we want to be. So why does a growth mindset sometimes lead to burnout? And when does it become a tool of capitalism? In this episode, Nic and Lala discuss reimagining growth, honouring natural rhythms, and broadening our vision to support collective expansion.

Venus Retrograde is an astrological transit that asks us to reclaim the parts of ourselves that feel ugly, unloved, and unacceptable. In this episode, Nic and Lala trace the ways the Venus Retrograde cycle has impacted their lives, and discuss healing through meeting our pain and embracing our shadows.

During a pandemic, our families can become even more crucial to our survival - but they can also compound our stress and trauma. Can we always tell the difference? In this episode, Nic and Lala discuss untangling guilt from love, grieving loss, celebrating reconnection, and setting boundaries that serve us.

A racing heart, shaky hands, a sense of impending doom - fear can be one of our most overwhelming feelings. So how are we supposed to function when it becomes a centrepiece of our daily lives? In this episode, Nic and Lala discuss expressing, releasing, and soothing fear - and how to make space for moments when we feel we can’t work with it at all.

In uncertain times, with so much beyond our control, is it possible to find steadiness? Can we continue to live and heal during a pandemic? In this episode, Nic and Lala discuss cultivating joy, groundedness, and presence while simultaneously facing the fear and grief of this moment.